Healing Hearts

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I just got back from an awesome retreat. It was a gathering of pastor’s wives who have already completed a study course through Healing Hearts. Imagine being healed from painful events in your childhood or being reassured that your sins are forgiven. So much of what we do (or don’t do) is influenced by our upbringing. Although God had healed my heart of many things such as: growing up without a father and enduring bitterness from my mother, God uniquely used this study to reveal something unknown to me.

 

After the death of my son last year and went through feelings of betrayal by God. I started to lash out at my husband, blaming him for all my frustrations and was short on patience with my toddler. It became chronic and upsetting since I didn’t know what was wrong. I really didn’t like who I was becoming. Through the study I had harbored feelings against God for taking Isaac home.

 

I was so broken to realize I was harboring such feelings toward God; whom I love so deeply. It was a healing time the God used to show me the root of my bitter ness-sin. Through confessing those dreadful feelings and asking the Lord to cleanse my heart and renew my mind, He graciously did so.

 

I can’t say enough about this resource for any woman who wants to continue in her walk of spiritual growth and healing from painful experiences in life. All of the women in the retreat have been changed through the study and it was evident by the genuine fellowship we shared together.

 

If you are interested in this online course, please go to the following website: www.healinghearts.org What is so wonderful is that it is completely confidential and you have another believer guide you through the study and is committed to pray for you and encourage you along the way.

 

Thankful to the one who heals all our hearts.

 

Till next time.

Bitter no more!

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“Looking carefully lest anyone fall short of the grace of God; lest any root of bitterness springing up cause trouble, and by this many become defiled” Hebrews 12:15

I can’t think of any worse spiritual poison than bitterness. It’s literally a kill joy. I had been going through a bible study when the word diagnosed me as bitter. I didn’t even know it.

Reading God’s word is often like getting a check up at the doctor. Do you remember the last visit to the doctor you had? You went in confidently thinking that you would get a clean bill of health. Then, the test results came back “positive”. You have a response of confusion as you say to yourself, “But, I feel fine.”

Bitterness can be that subtle. We supposedly “feel fine”. Over the years of not forgiving that one person or persons it’s tentacles make their way into our hearts choking out things such as joy, peace and contentment. The symptoms have always been there but we just thought that those outbursts of anger or touchiness were just part of our personality. We had no idea that those symptoms were contusions on our hearts from roots of bitterness.

Once I recognized I had a root of bitterness, I had to discover who I was bitter toward. In praying to God about it He showed me I was bitter toward Him. It was a painful confession that I had to make. It’s such a terrible feeling to be bitter toward God when you love him so much. I felt a bitterness because my son had died. I didn’t realize feeling bitter distanced me from God. After all, how can you be close to someone you are bitter toward? My joy was gone.  I was touchy and irritable with everyone around me. It was miserable.

 I can’t say enough about God and how awesome he is. Yes, I tested positive for bitterness but God didn’t care about the diagnosis, He only cared about healing me.  Here is the treatment He gave me:

 

Ask God to examine your heart.

Search me, O God, and know my heart;
Try me, and know my anxieties;

And see if there is any wicked way in me,
And lead me in the way everlasting. Ps 139:23-24

I asked the Lord to show me the source of bitterness that I had.

 

Forgive the person that you should forgive.

“For if you forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you.  But if you do not forgive men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses.” Matthew 6:15

Not forgiving prevents us from receiving God’s forgiveness. I had to ask forgiveness from God for being bitter toward Him.

 

Turn from harboring your anger and resentment so that healing will come.

“Repent therefore and be converted, that your sins may be blotted out, so that times of refreshing may come from the presence of the Lord,” Acts 3:19

After deciding to turn from my way of bitterness and unforgivness, I was made whole.

 

God healed me and took away the root of bitterness. There is now a peace flowing like a river in my soul. When we have a root of bitterness in our heart there is no room for love to flow. If you follow God’s steps toward healing, you can experience the peace that surpasses all understanding. God be with you today.

 

Psalm 32:3-5

When I kept silent, my bones grew old
Through my groaning all the day long.

For day and night Your hand was heavy upon me;
My vitality was turned into the drought of summer. Selah

I acknowledged my sin to You,
And my iniquity I have not hidden.
I said, “I will confess my transgressions to the Lord,”
And You forgave the iniquity of my sin. Selah

 

 

 

 

Leaning on Hezekiah’s Prayer

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Our church received notice that a young girl, thirteen years old, had fallen ill. She went into the emergency for fatigue and flu like symptoms. Over the course of a few days her blood tests were getting worse and worse. The doctors have been suggesting leukemia.

We had a team of short-term missionaries visit us from California. On this team was a nurse who specializes in pediatric cancer patients. This would be the beginning of many answers from God regarding this young girls life. This nurse’s visit helped get things moving to have her transferred to a specialized hospital.

Our church began to have daily prayer meetings. There are many broken hearts over the condition of this dear sister. She is known at school as “dove” because wherever she is present there is peace. She has walked closely with the Lord and has received teasing from classmates because she doesn’t follow the crowd but has chosen to follow Christ in every area of her life.

One evening as I was at home, I cried out to the Lord for the healing of our “Dove”. I particularly prayed very strong prayers for her mother. In the loss of my own baby this year, I felt the weight of a mother a seeing a child with death hovering over. I prayed that the tests would show something other than leukemia that is treatable.

I casually opened my bible to Isaiah 38 when Hezekiah was told that he needed to prepare himself because he was going to die. This was God’s advanced notice to Hezekiah to “get his affairs in order”. It says that Hezekiah immediately turned and prayed to the Lord upon hearing the news from Isaiah. He reminded God that he has served him with a perfect heart. God replied to Hezekiah by saying, “I have heard your prayer, I have seen thy tears: behold, I will add unto your days fifteen years.”

I considered this as God’s encouragement to pray for divine healing. I actually had no other prayer. Sometimes we can be so theologically correct in our prayers that it’s not really faith. Hezekiah didn’t say something like, “Well, Lord you are sovereign. I know that you are able (if you want) to heal me but if you don’t it’s because you have a better plan.” I actually don’t see anything close to that kind of prayer when praying for one who is dying or has died especially children. Hezekiah was desperate and we have been desperate in our prayers as well for “Dove” to be healed.

In the last few days, the doctors have stated that her tests are showing a high possibility of a viral infection instead of leukemia. We will know this week conclusively what she really has. May our “Dove” soon say like Hezekiah, “The living, the living, he shall praise thee as I do this day”.

When you are faced with grave news, turn to the One who gives life. Ask Him to give you a promise that you can stand on. Pray with petitions and tears. He comforts the broken and is the Great Physician.